THIS GAPING HOLE IN MY CHEST...

45caliberkiller @ 2005-07-08T19:10:00

2005-07-09T02:21:47Z

"Bloody Romance"

Life, is floating fast away. But I look, your head is turned away.

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.

But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.

You and me are like one heart-beat. You and me are like one heart-beat.

So slice open my veins.

And let, the romance bleed away.

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.

But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.

You and me are like one heart-beat. You and me are like one heart-beat.

Back into what I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do. My heart held, in the palm of your hand

. (Forget my name) Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.

(Forget my name) You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.

(Forget my name) This time in silence, This time I win.

(Forget my name) (Forget my name) (Forget my name)

now will you feel my pain.

(Forget my name) (Forget my name) (Forget my name) (Forget my name) (Forget my name)

45caliberkiller @ 2005-07-05T05:01:00

2005-07-05T09:03:04Z

fuck that last entrie iwas way wrong and totaly emotional

p.s................broken hearts are easily fixed!

2:50 a.m. july 4th

2005-07-05T06:54:23Z

i dont know what to write here except my heart is officially broken.i wish i could just have her back but that will never be.so i will be here lonely and dying but dont feel sorry for me its all my fault .i drove my self in to this car crash and i have to drive my self out.

and maybe one day love will find us and fix all i have done and i hope you can foregive me for all i have done.all i want is to be with you and if i have to go without ill day trying because your everything to me.you may think your not good enough but your to good maybe youll stick around for a broken hearted loser like me.

45caliberkiller @ 2005-07-04T11:02:00

2005-07-04T15:05:27Z

Smiles and her laughter its the only thing that I've been waiting for a time regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time ...the only thing that I've been waiting for.

I hope its something worth the waiting cause its the only time that I ever feel real thunder storms could never stop me cause there's no one in the world like billie.

she's simple yet confusing her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble days seem like years in this month of December the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep and never will I give up trying because you're everything to me.

I hope its something worth the waiting its the only time that I ever feel real thunder storms could never stop me cause there's no one in the world like billie.

waiting forever

2005-07-01T05:14:59Z

ill will wait forever and a day. you say to forget but i cant nor do i want to.i love you more than you will ever know. ive missed things up big this time im dying on the inside. so heres my love letter to youtake it for what it is ..................but know i will get you back one day no matter what you say. <3

45caliberkiller @ 2005-06-30T21:35:00

2005-07-01T01:36:34Z

A Boy Brushed Red.... Living In Black And White Can you feel your heartbeat racing? Can you taste the fear in her sweat? You've done this wrong It's too far gone These sheets tell of regret I admit that I'm just a fool for you I am just a fool for you Here is where we both go wrong Tonight's your last chance to Do exactly what you want to And this could be my night This is what makes me feel alive Makes you feel alive Here is where we both go wrong So sign me up And toss this key 'Cause for now we're Living in this moment And we both ignore the truth Its all over Its all over I feel your heart against mine So take a breath and close your eyes [chorus] Your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing My heart is dead and its way past beating Something has gone terribly wrong I'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this I never thought we'd make it out alive I never told you but its all in your goodbyes It's all in your goodbyes Well look who's dying now Slit wristless sleeping with the girl next door I always knew you were such a sucker for that It doesnt matter what you say You never mattered anyway Never mattered anyway In this moment that we both ignore the truth It's all over It's all over I feel your heart against mine So take a breath and close your eyes [chorus] Don't shake, i hate to see you tremble Trembling you've lost your touch Haven't you run so addicted

45caliberkiller @ 2005-06-29T15:36:00

2005-06-29T19:47:51Z

Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air, When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth, Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far...From here.

NOTE TO SELF:I MISS YOU TERRIBLY.

THIS IS WHAT..WE CALL A TRAGEDY.

COME BACK TO ME,COME BACK TO ME, TO ME

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.

Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so...Far!

GETING FUXED UP

2005-05-30T01:28:25Z

IM CHILLIN AT MY HOUSE WITH BILLIE,AMANDA,BENJAR,THE BUM,HEADFAT,KATIE,RILEY,ANDZEKE.

bored

2005-05-26T01:50:23Z

ive been at my dads house the past few days and ive been bored as FUCK.the first day i was here me and my dad got in a fight and i packed my shit and was leaving but when i got out the door he grabbed my shirt and threw my on the ground.that was followed by about 2 hours of yelling,god i hate being here i just to see my girlfriend.hopefully i leave soon.

best entry EVER!!!~!!!!!

2005-05-22T04:59:41Z

the motherfuckin mcmurchie is the badasses coolest girl ever!!!!! PLUS billie motherfuckin Jo! cause they rock!~

love,
kyle william rose

partying

2005-05-22T04:43:22Z

im chillin hard at my house with the following:
jizzle
motherfuckin
katie
alex
josh
money
ray
hussey
lauren
brooks
juicy
cody
soon to be barrret and his buds

checking the weather likea mufucker

getting fucked up

2005-05-20T22:31:22Z

tonight i hope to get severly trashed